Thursday, September 23, 2010

A lesson learned from a daughter

Today is a special day. Fifteen years ago our second daughter was born, 5 weeks early, but strong, healthy and adorable. We knew we wanted to be a blessing to her but had no idea what a blessing she'd be to us!
Funny how that happens. The very beings we are working so hard at raising and teaching are also vessels of wisdom to us. I remember the first time I discovered this lesson about ten years ago...

It was a frustrating day.  The twins had had multiple therapies in our home for early intervention. At that point, they disliked their male Occupational Therapist deeply. They were, I believe, convinced he was a doctor. Doctors brought about immediate screams and cries of protest. They were as weary as I by now.I had our five year old at home one last year and she had spent the afternoon trying to use our computer and printer. (Remember, this was ten years ago and the technology reflected that!) The oldest, around 7 years, was home from a full day of school with an equally full backpack waiting to be sorted through.
"Mom!"  "MOMMY"  "MaMaMaMaMaMa"  MMMMMMmmmmmmaaa!", echoed through the house and in my ears.
As a loving, caring mother I responded with, "You guys are driving me CRAZY!". sigh. Can I have a do-over?   Then, from my sweet spirited, mostly quiet, five year old I heard,
"fine. I'll go to my room."
Her door shut. Not the angry slam of a teenager, but the methodical click of a door closing. Sobs were heard. Alyssa started up the stairs to see if she wanted to play together. (already the intervening peace keeper) Instead we heard something land in the foyer with a, "Tell mommy there is a note for her in the hallway." Despite myself I smiled, more like smirked, in curiosity.  Remember, she was five. There were not that many words in her WRITTEN vocab that could make up a note.

I soon discovered she was able to make her point with very few words. As I uncrumpled the little square of paper I found just two words with a little stick person in between.
                                 Mommy    tears from a stick person    Brielle
Her point was made. I knew exactly how she was feeling and what she wanted from me.

A few days later I found myself in a similar situation, with my heavenly Father. I knew I had things I wanted to talk to my God about but felt totally incapable of putting them into words. In my numb tears I trusted the Spirit to interpret them to the Father...that was all I was capable of.

Romans 8:26 (New International Version)

 26In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express.
I carried her note around for a very long time until, sadly, the paper was lost. I continue to carry it in my heart!
It was some time later that I wrestled with this verse....thinking perhaps the Spirit had been interpreting into the wrong language since I wasn't getting the answers I thought I was hoping for.  Then I discovered that the next verse searches our heart. The interceding is in accordance with God's will, not mine. Although they may be the same thing, I fear they often are not.

Romans 8:27 (New International Version)

27And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints in accordance with God's will.
Yes, my prayers have been heard and some even answered, but with the knowledge of God's mind and His will. He has seen the whole picture.  Have faith that your prayers are heard, felt, and understood even without words...and answered according to His perfect will. 
Pretty big lesson from a five year old. Pretty neat to see how God uses our children according to His purposes.

Oh, and I have a note for you daughter dear....
                           Brielle       stick figure with smiles of joy in a BIG heart         Mommy
                                   HAPPY BIRTHDAY! WE LOVE YOU! XXOO

1 comment:

  1. LOVE this!!

    Brielle is a beautiful young lady!

    Please pass on the Happy Birthday wishes!!